Day 4

The effects of stress on one's body never cease to amaze me. I see these effects everyday with my patients, and even just walking down the street. We are all suffering, even if we don't realize it. Over the last 3 years, I've worked hard to bring mindfulness awareness into practice. I've learned to understand and listen to my body, and come up with strategies for dealing with stress. Up until last week, I'd thought I'd mastered the art of stress management. Turns outs, it can still get the best of me. Over the last two months there has been a lot of unrest in our household. Chad and I have a great marriage, a beautiful home, and lots to be thankful for, but we are both dealing with professional difficulties. There has been a lot of back and forth, countless tears, and many hours of lost sleep, but I think we have finally made some of the necessary decisions to put us where we want to be. Change is scary, and walking away from opportunities is even scarier, but ultimately you have to follow your heart.

Yesterday, after a night of little sleep, I was a zombie. When I don't sleep I get chilled and shakey, not fun when you're supposed to be seeing patients. Also, my stomach was churning all day because of nerves. I ate my normal breakfast and ended up meeting Chad at Chipotle for lunch. I had a chicken burrito bowl- chicken, grilled veggies, romaine, salsa, and guac. Around 3:30 I had a "breakfast cake" made with protein powder in place of coconut flour. Then I headed to CrossFit. Probably not the best idea, since I was exhausted, but I need some good endorphins. Here's yesterday's WOD:

STRENGTH -
PUSH PRESS WORK UP TO 1 REP MAX
5.5.3.3.2.1
WOD – AMRAP 20 MINUTES
3 FRONT SQUAT 115/75
5 WALL BALL “DOUBLE TIME”
KB ROW CIRCUIT (WILL EXPLAIN) GOOD TIMES!
10 RUSSIAN KB SWINGS
15 KNEE TUCK JUMPS

For dinner I made Chad some eggs and chicken/apple sausage. I ate leftover grilled veggies, sausage, and an egg. We ate and immediately got into bed to try to get some much needed rest.